Letter to my eldest child

'To my eldest child,

I hope I’m doing ok. I wish you could know how hard I’m trying.

 Some days, I think I might have it.

 Other nights, I come in after you’ve fallen asleep, lie down and whisper ‘sorrys’ into your ear as my tears soak your pillow. Hoping you might wake so I can tell you I will try harder tomorrow.

 I promise.

 Praying you’re still so small, you won’t remember these broken days where I have been less than you need. Silenced your little voice beneath my yelling.

 My frustration.

 My utter exhaustion.

 I’ve never done this before, so maybe sometimes I seem unsure.

 I am. That must be scary.

 Your siblings will have an easier road. A sturdier leader. It won’t be fair.

 But you, my darling, are why I keep rising.

Why I keep growing. Why I will never stop trying.

So, I promise you, my darling –

I will try harder tomorrow.'

- By Elisabeth Sophia

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